Writing to write

Today I got an email back from one of the sites I emailed to blog for.

Apparently my writing isn't engaging enough. I went back and read over the other blogs listed on the site and realized they all had a lot of 'tude. Bloggers always seem to have this sense of self entitlement or some sort of blogger ego that allows them to shamelessly ramble in their little space with all the authority of...well I dunno. something.

I think my problem is that I've tried to be a private person for so long, I find it extremely hard to get out of my shell and expose myself online. It's gotten to the point where I think i'm going to give up my privacy in efforts to better connect with the online community. No more privated photos, or private blogs, I'm just going to bare all. why? Cos in essence, i know i'm a very heart on the sleeve kind of person, and I'm just going to stop trying to fight it. The problem, I care very much about what you think. What they think. What everyone thinks. But i think for the time being, i'm going to stop caring so much, so I can jus try harder at being me.